Give Me Faith

There's a new worship song that they've been singing at church. I personally love it because it's the cry of my heart now, and it might be my "Theme Song" for this year. Here are the lyrics. 

 "Give Me Faith" - Elevation Worship
I need you to soften my heart
To break me apart
I need you to open my eyes
To see that You're shaping my life

All I am, I surrender

Give me faith to trust what you say
That you're good and your love is great
I'm broken inside, I give you my life

I need you to soften my heart
To break me apart
I need you pierce through the dark
And cleanse every part of me
Give me faith to trust what you say
That you're good and your love is great
I'm broken inside, I give you my life 

I may be weak
Your spirit strong in me
My flesh may fail
My God you never will

Happy New Year!

Why does it take a “new” thing to create change in us, to bring out action in us? Why is it that we often wait until the “new year” or “new month” or “new week” to makes changes, correct bad habits, and start new dreams instead of doing it NOW?

I’m so guilty of this, with this new year I’m trying to make changes, stick to a reading plan, spend more time doing devotionals, spend more time on myself and stop worrying about the things I can’t control – I tend to do that a lot, worry about things that I can’t do anything about, that I can’t control. Yet I’m trying to change now, in the New year… I wonder how different the fall of 2010 would have been if I had resolve to even just try a little back summer/early fall to change. When I was really starting to unravel… maybe there wouldn’t have been such wasted time on my part. Maybe more dreams would have come to be, maybe I would have been able to do more ministry… instead of… well doing nothing. God knows – He’s in control and I can only pray that he will redeem the time.

With that my SSMT verse is Isaiah 43:18-19. This is a verse that I felt God first gave to me last Dec. 31 2009, yeah I know a whole year later.  I so often tend to want to live in the past and hold on to those form things-whether it's friendships, people, feelings, memories, "what ifs", regrets, points of view, fears, traditions and so much more. It's time to let go and see what God has in store for 2011.

Isaiah 43:18-19

“Forget the former things;
   do not dwell on the past.
 See, I am doing a new thing!
   Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?
I am making a way in the wilderness
   and streams in the wasteland.

           

Waiting

Psalm 27:14 “Wait on the LORD; Be of good courage, and He shall strengthen your heart; Wait, I say, on the LORD”

This verse has been such an encouragement and a “YAY, I’m going to persevere and wait”.. Lately it seems like it’s been more of a “How much longer, LORD?”

See growing up in a christian home I’ve heard and read a lot of stories about those that wait on the Lord and about those that don’t. I’ve also had times when I’ve experience the rewards of waiting as well as the fact that God can do more than I can ever think of imagine, I’ve even experienced that very recently (I’ll hopefully will be blogging about it) Yet I’m in a season where more and more I find myself on the side of “How much longer, Lord?”

How much longer till I meet my husband?.. How much longer until I have a family of my own?.. How much longer until I can work doing something that I’m truly passionate about?

The Beauty of Kairos, is the web address I used for this blog, why is that? I learned at bible study a couple of years ago that “kairos” in the new testament means “the appointed time in the purpose of God” – it’s always stuck with me for some reason.

I definitely want my life to always be in sync with God’s purpose and timing, the waiting though – it’s not always easy. Doubt can sometimes and often sneak in. I guess that’s why Paul (I think) so often encourages, urges, us to hide God’s word in our heart.

I have to admit that I haven’t done too good of a job in that depart, I mean I’ve memorized bible verses in school and ever so often, but after a while I can tend to forget them. So I’m challenging myself this year through the Beth Moore blog it’s called the Siesta Scripture Memory Team – 2 verses a month, and there is accountability through the blog too (and yes I will also try to post it here) we’ll see how it goes.

 So I guess for now I will just sit back and wait on the Lord and pray that he will encourage me through his word and strengthen my heart to wait on him.